I've not found what I came here for

[Castratrix's pet]

I came here to this forum seeking insights and information. I feel a need to understand my femdom ********** fantasies and fetishes. To understand what caused them and why I have them. Most of all to understand what it is I'm really serching for through my femdom ********** fantasies and how to find it how best to handle them.

I feel very deeply there is something I'm searching for through them, something much deeper and much more than sexual pleasure or sexual feelings from a sex fantasy. What is it I'm really searching for through them and how do I find that how do I handle that?

I have found here a community of very nice even great and good people, and I have found some good even great wank off material. but I have found no answers and answers to my questions about my femdom ********** fantasies and fetishes is what I need. I want to thank everyone here who has answered or tried to answer and give me insights on this.

I need to understand not just this, I need to understand my whole self my whole being. My femdom ********** fantasies are a part of me and who and what I am. Like the rest of me and what I am, I need to understand this part of me the part about my femdom ********** fantasies, I need to understand this part of me and to know what to do with and about it nad how to do so.

Without answers I question the point of staying. That is why I came here, because I need to understand and to know and to know how to find what I'm seeking and how to deal with that.

[Sockmess]

Your not born with a fetish but then again you don't just pick your fetish either. Its a long process of growing up and what events happen in your life. Your decisions your strengths and weakness and personality.

All i know for me i started out with a leg fetish, to a foot and shoe fetish and then it graduated to ball kicking and then just ball abuse fetish. And now i even have the dark fetish of sexual destruction from a woman. I don't even know how i got here. But it happen.

[msms]

I suggest you read a few psychology books that deal with fear. Everyone fears death and loneliness, but men and women have specific fears. For men it is ********** and mutilation. We watch horror films because they allow us to experience our fears through someone else. We watch the news when somebody gets his cock/ballls cut off, etc., etc...

[blancanvas]

Paging Dr. Sigmund Freud...Dr. Freud...? :wooow

[Snoodle]

Protip: Porn sites aren't the best places to seek the truth of your soul.

I mean, really now, who goes to a porn site for enlightenment? Its a kink. Just accept that it tickles your pickle and move on.

[sicko666]

True, these are very,very complex and deep psychological questions that would need experts in their respective fields to even begin to answer ( and i for one am not convinced they would even be able to provide answers you seek! ). Just a suggestion but have you tried over at the eunach archive forum? The people there might have actually been through your quest themselves, or atleast had dealings with "professionals" so might have some sort of deeper insight.I wish you luck, but the mind is still such a complex and unknown thing.......

[kickpom]

I have tried to answer your questions but i feel that as it isnt what you want to hear, you're just brushing me off.

It seems that you're only here to have us tell you that ut would feel amazing etc, any slight indication of reality and you're not interested.

Im sorry if i sound harsh but i think that you sre not after answers at all - just to fuel you're fetish.