Originally Posted by
LilShelly
And I had to smile about that, because, you know, a fantasy that is absolutely forbidden to ever come true: that is just a sad dream. ;)
So true, a forbidden fantasy that never go's away is just a curse.
My fantasy has made my life happy for so long, it gave me the desire to go about my daily activities as if my life were a mission to "get the perfect guy." The only reason I wanted that was to fulfill my own desire, with the hope that the feeling were mutual.
Realizing that my idea is selfish and wrong, I have lived the last year stomping out the light that I once so cherished. Hooking up with a really good guy, never mentioning my dark side, and yes, he could have been the one. Things moved too quickly, he gave me a ring, I asked him to keep it until I was ready. That was my selfish mistake, now that ring is on my friends finger, they are happily engaged. I get to see them every day, and I have no hard feelings toward either of them, I only wish them the best. But I am still the little tramp, alone with my sad dream that was never meant to come true.