The reason I have sexual fantasies about being kicked in the balls...is because I have huge real world anxieties about being kicked in the balls!
I discovered this video that explains it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7U8bhJHlrVI
It says that sexual fantasies are solutions to real world anxieties and that makes sense to me.
I have HUGE anxieties that people can go for my balls whenever they want and I won't be able to stop them or protect myself and everyone else will just point and laugh instead of supporting and comforting and protecting me.
It's as if people are ALLOWED to go for my balls with no repurcussions.
That terrifies me so I have to sexually fantasise about it to comfort myself.
Weird.