In all seriousness, for a long time now I have had the feeling that there is more to my femdom ********** fantasies and fetishes than just some kind of sexual gratification and wank off material.

For a long time I have felt there is something I'm searching for through my femdom ********** fantasies and fetishes, something that's a lot more than just the physical thing of a woman wearing a long sleeve shirt with her sleeves rolled up above her elbows cutting my nuts out and her physically destroying my manhood. I don't know if what I'm really searching for involves a woman with her sleeves rolled up cutting my nuts out. But for some reason that is the form it has taken in my mind, that's what appears on the surface, but what I'm really searching for through these fantasies and fetishes is something more and deeper than that.

When someone has a fantasy or fetish that is a big thing to them and it's one they have had for a long time as a major thing, then I think there is something that person is searching for through that fantasy and through those fetishes.

I'm trying to find out and sort out what it is I'm really searching for through my femdom ********** fantasies and fetishes and how to go about finding it. That's what I'm doing with the things I post here about it and with the replies I get to my posts. I just feel there's something I'm searching for through my femdom ********** fantasies and fetishes, something more than what appears on the surface. So through my posts here about it and the replies I get to my posts, I'm trying to figure out what it is I'm really searching for through them and how to find it.