Stand to what you say.
"...and to hell with the rest of your life?" tells your mind, that life is over without penis.
"your manhood only exists for one reason...to lose it?" tells your mind, that penis = manhood
I then sayed that I am not my penis.

You talk two minds: On the one hand you find it arousing, on the other you find it insane. The urge itself may actually be "insane" or at least seem so to our limited understanding. To want it to happen for real on the other hand is not more insane than to take great risks for any "fun" or to suffer great expenses for it, something many "sane" people do when driving motorbikes or skydiving or the like. Penectomy is a one time thing, ok. But it is such a big part of my sexuality, that I would call it a loss to end my life one day, without having had the chance to experience it, before I was too old for it.
And now cut it here please, I may answer in your poll-thread if I want.


Let's cut off some pervert's dicks here!