Inquistiv here. Looks like I’ve been banned from posting :-( Seems a bit harsh. No explanation’s been given. I’ve been trying to do the right thing. I’ll leave you all alone after this if I’m not wanted here :-(

Thanks Tamakeri,
Point taken. You don’t WANT to say I’m a lightweight but it rather looks like I might be! I guess I’m not really into being actually “damaged” especially in any permanent sense. My original (and best) busting was also not something I was looking for at the time. I’m still not sure whether the incident induced my fetish or whether it brought out something that was already there. It’s very interesting what you say about being ‘addicted to the fear’. Maybe that’s EXACTLY what it is I’m looking for - only I’ve never really realised it. I was certainly shitting myself the first time!! I had absolutely no control over the situation.

I’ve been busted by a string of girlfriends over the years. While it was generally pleasurable, it never really did it for me. Part of this might have been that I was sure that the girls involved didn’t want to really hurt me – i.e. there was no real fear. The thing I think I’ve missed is a girl that actually enjoys the busting, a girl that likes to inflict pain. While many will give it a half-hearted go, I’ve not found any that are really into the idea :-( I probably like the thought of being really busted more than the reality and even get off on the idea that a lass might actually want to ruin me (?). Maybe this says it all – the ‘thought’ can make you afraid and that’s the bit of the kick that’s been missing. This is something useful I can explore :-)

Many Thanx.
Goodbye.