Welcome LilShelly.
For starters, please let me say, you are an absolute doll. With your bravery and your innocence, combined with your looks, there should be no reason you can not find "Mr. Right'. and be able to have an open and honest relationship, with respect for your kinky desires.
You are the exact girl that I have always wanted to meet, but there would be no way of knowing that if you kept your fantasy to yourself. Do you think Mr. Right could be about fifteen years older than you?
Point is, I think if you are honest with the guy that you "really like", he should respect you for who you are. If he runs away with his tail between his legs, he was never a really good boyfriend to begin with.
Good luck, and I hope you stick around here for a while
