Thanks for your agreement.

I know it's hard and I don't really know how to handle it, for you or me or anybody with this desire beeing strong but I'm afraid we already have gotten all the female response we will get.
Your drive makes you wish it wasn't so. You can imagine women with active ********** fantasies because you need it so much. You have a picture of women in your mind and that is so beautiful to you, a picture of a goddess, you just don't want to accept it should be just a dream.

But I have been on the eunuch archive for many years (just like you, I suppose), I have been all over the internet and reading everything I could find everywhere and I have had girlfriends to talk about it and have been talkin to girls and women always and I'll be 40 having this fantasy all my life and I never
...never
have found any interest other than pure unsexual curiosity or making fun of it. Nothing more.

we don't hear about them, the women tend to keep these fantasies to themselves.
That is a wish.
A construction, the last straw you clutch because else you had to admit:
If you don't hear nothing, never, there probably is just NOTHING.

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Ok, listen.
Maybe it is not all black, not everything, there is one chance:
A woman could do it, really do it and have pleasure doing it.
But never deliberately.
If a woman would do such a thing it would be purely a thing of the moment.
They don't have the wish. Don't have the fantasy.
They could feel a thrill once it lies just before them and then it's not unlikely it might just "happen", but that is all there is.

For me that is not enough.