Quote Originally Posted by swtoby View Post
I would be interested to hear from others what turns them on about this fantasy and specifically if anyone else has fantasies that go beyond **********.

I think most people who have femdom ********** fantasies can relate to and identify with the feelings and so on you have talked about here with your femdom ********** fantasies. for a long time I thought I was the only one who had such fantasies. Then I found The Eunuch Archive (eunuch.org) and I found out there are quite a number of people who have ********** fantasies. So you are not alone in having femdom ********** fantasies.

You asked what turns me on about this fantasy. I think what really turns me on about femdom ********** is the idea of women having that kind of total and absolute power over men, of her totally destroying him, of women having total omnipotence over men as if women are God.

What turns me on about my femdom ********** fantasy is a woman having total absolute power over me, of her totally destroying me, of me being completely under a woman's power and totally at her mercy as if she herself is God.

By the way, I view and worship God solely as female, to me God is really Goddess and that is how I think of, view, and worship God, as female, as Goddess.

In my femdom ********** fantasies, as she performs the ********** surgery on me, the castratrix becomes and is Goddess Herself and I worship her as Goddess as she cuts my nuts out and my manhood is destroyed at her hands, and it is worship of her that will continue forever after the operation.

In my fantasies I am my manhood. As the castratrix slowly cuts out my testicles and my manhood is destroyed at her hands, what she is destroying is my very being and my very essence. My total being and my total essence is being sacrificed to The Goddess at Her own hands as She surgically castrates me. Like Goddess/Creatrix, She is creating me into what She wants me to be to serve and worship Her as She wants me to serve and worship Her.

As she performs ********** surgery on me and my manhood is destroyed at her hands, the castratrix absorbs me and my very being and essence into herself and into her very being and essence so that she and I are eternally united eternally one with each other. Through the castratrix I am eternally united with The Goddess. That is how it feels to me, so for me it is much more and much deeper than just something sexual. For me femdom ********** and my femdom ********** fantasies are something very deeply spiritual.

In my fantasies the castratrix becomes and is The Goddess. ********* and emasculated at her hands I will forever worship her and forever belong completely to her.

I have tried to figure out what it is I'm really searching for through my femdom ********** fantasies. I think that what I'm searching for through them is something much more and much deeper than just physically my testicles being surgically removed and my manhood destroyed at the hands of a woman. I think what I'm really searching for through them is something deeply spiritual and my femdom ********** fantasies are how that something spiritual is being manifested in the physical.

I know some of this seems really way out and strange, but you did ask and that is what in my femdom ********** fantasies that turn me on, and that is how it feels down inside me.